Today my big kor kor, des was sent by office to some very rural area (even more rural than my placement in exeter, can u imagine that??) and he will not be home for 3 days..
Interestingly, i have been missing him whole day and the feeling is very weird as not that he will be there for whole week, it is just 72 hours!! Time flies but why ya i feel so much lonely without seeimg him for just one day.
I said it's weird as i dotn feel so when i went back msia for two months before him. I also dont have such feeling when i was away for placement for two weeks. This feeling reminds me back to the reluctant feeling i have for him when he 1st leaving to aus. i missed him so much that time that i even secretly hoped that he will change his mind and not going to aus..i feel so evil..hehe
maybe becos tml i m going to have Therapeutic Oral Exam which i fear so much!! and i so used to have him around to encourage me..and also maybe i used to listen to him calling me: ah mei..
also maybe i feel so much safer with him around in the house.. and maybe cos i dont have bf and he is the first guy i will go to besides my dad when i encounter any problems. I guess it is all these stuffs that explains why i m abit emo today!!
anyway, i m starting to feel nervous for my 3pm oral test tml!!
Dear Lord, i pray that i can do better than my previous one.. Please humble me down if i m over confidence. Pls motivate me when i cant continue anymore. please bring me back to focus when i m distracted...thanks Lord!! Your Grace is sufficient to me!! I shall rest my burden in you and let u do the rest!!
btw, i keep on hearing some weird "farting" sounds from the room downstairs..yucks...
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