Why so???

我想我應該應該不會愛你　
為了要努力　努力的不愛你　
所以我讓自己那麼喜歡你
這樣你就不忍心和我分離　
我想我討厭　討厭驕傲的你　
也討厭美好　美好的那個你　
於是我要自己假裝討厭你　
那麼你就捨不得離我而去　
我必須說我真的不會喜歡你　
我不喜歡你佔據我所有思緒　
連你的竊笑也像是鼓勵　
從早安後的早餐到晚餐後的晚安　
別笑了　別笑了　我不會喜歡你　
我放空了　我解脫了　
你還是在我的眼裡　我喜歡了　
我討厭了　影響不了我的呼吸
原來我　已經無法自拔　
我秘密的　愛上你　
你不必懂　我真的不會喜歡你　
我不想要你因為我變得消極　
有你的城市下雨也美麗　
從黎明後的太陽　到深夜裡的月光　
別想了　別想了　我不會喜歡你　
別想了　別想了　我不會喜歡你

A blissful day:)

Feel so great recently:p

Probably cos spring is coming. Yeah Goodbye to the freezing cold winter!

I love snow but really super dislike the coldness. So hopefully next yr i will be in a place where there is no more or less coldness than tassie!

Went to Group Kick Class just now and had a really great workout!

Having my spicy eggplant while watching TVB drama may seem super dull and normal to you.

But cos of the joy in my heart right now, everything dull seems lively:pppp

Thank God for this blessing and i pray everyday i will be as contented as this:)

I m reluctant on the fact that lucas has left aus which means lesser chance for me to c him, but i knew he is happy on his decision. His happiness is what matters to me:) His happiness has way overcome the reluctant feeling i have.

Sounds cheesy:p But this is so true!

Also, des is doing really well in melb and best part is he is enjoying soooo much. I felt so happy for him when he sent those house pictures..Look so cool!

His happiness has again added joy to my heart:)

Now i truly realise that: when you love someone with all your heart, the smile on their faces can make your day soooo happy!

Heavenly father, i'm sure u feel the same way to us too:)

Please stand firm this time!

To be honest, i'm abit disappointed at it. I guess you and the rest feel this way too.

I have been praying to God for wisdom to solve this issue everyday.

I tried to analyse and come out with hundreds of reasons but maybe none of them is right.

Can you just be frank to us and let us know why did u do so? U know we are really worried about u.

Since it has already become a fact, i guess all i can do is take it easy and relax?

Hopefully tonight can be a good relaxing night for me. I need energy to work, study etc.

For whichever decision, u know support is always there:)

Please stand firm with ur decision this time and never be shaken again!

God knows my worries and sent angel to me just now:) I know i can sleep well tonight:)

Thanks Abba Father!!

What do you want YY?

猜不透
你最近是好是坏的沉默
我也不想去追问太多
但是他为彼此的戏上了锁

猜不透
相处会比分开还寂寞
两个人都只是得过且过
无法感受每次触摸
是真的 是热的

如果乎远乎近的洒脱是你要的自由
那我宁愿回到一个人生活
如果乎冷乎热的温柔是你的借口
那我宁愿对你从没认真过

到底这感觉谁对谁错
我已经不想追求
越是在乎的人越是猜不透

Mummy, the most nurtured person:)

Happy Mother's Day to my sweetest mummy!!

No matter how corrupted is the outside world, i know i always have someone as my shelter and listener..

The effort you have pour to this family is countless and without you as the pillar, our family will not be as happy and complete!

I missed the time when two of us decorating our house for brother wedding. At that time i realised that my mummy is really creative! You have a good sense when it comes to decoration and fashion!

I missed the time when we take taxi together to kl shopping centre and you were so frightened as he took us to wrong destination..haha..When we had jap food, u know that i like the unagi very much and insist on ordering it for me:) When i did my rebonding in a new hair salon, u insisted to accompany me for my safety purposes..ahaa..

All these may seem little but it is ur natural instinct as a protective mummy which warmed my heart so much!

Just as the pastor said last night: If a mummy sees you as a threat to her child, you are in deep trouble!

So Thank You mummy!! I pray that next year we will be able to celebrate Mother's Day together!

Childhood:)

On my way home from pharmacy just now, the flock in the sky suddenly reminded me of my beloved cousin..

it brought me back to our childhood memories, the time when we see each other 24/7 for 17 years until we left each other for college:(

On every sunday and special occasions eg. CNY, Autumn festival etc, we will definitely go back to grandparents house.

We will always cycle to a home-based grocery shop to buy our favourite "MAMEE" and other junkies..

We even begged our daddies to borrow motorcycle from neighbors to 'makan angin'..haha..How mischievous we were!

There were many more silly stuffs which we did together..But some memories had gone blurr:((((

I must jot down all the memories here whenever i thought of one..as i don't wan our memories to disappear as time goes by...I really dont want:(((

You have a special place in my heart and i know you knew that! I really wish you can hug me right now and i really wan to feel your warmth again!

Until now i can't believe that you have gone and left me here:(

XOXO

Simplicity is a blessing:)

没那么简单
就能找到 聊得来的伴
尤其是在 看过了那么多的背叛
总是不安 只好强悍
谁谋杀了我的浪漫
没那么简单
就能去爱 别的全不看
变得实际 也许好也许坏各一半
不爱孤单 一久也习惯
不用担心谁 也不用被谁管
感觉快乐就忙东忙西
感觉累了就放空自己
别人说的话 随便听一听
自己作决定
不想拥有太多情绪
一杯红酒配电影
在周末晚上 关上了手机
舒服窝在沙发里
相爱没有那么容易
每个人有他的脾气
过了爱作梦的年纪
轰轰烈烈不如平静
幸福没有那么容易
才会特别让人着迷
什么都不懂的年纪
曾经最掏心
所以最开心 曾经
想念最伤心
但却最动心 的记忆

Wei Wei:)

Happie Birthday!!

Sorry for this belated post but u know that i do remember ur birthday right? hehe.

One of the greatest thing to be thankful for in my uni life is Wonder 5! There are times that i ask myself why do i choose Tassie of all happening places, why i wan to leave the sweet home and stay in this icy cool place?

But God clearly shows me the reason to be here! Yes Wonder 5 is the reason!

In 2007, Wei wei, the tiny girl with the softest voice i ever heard had her path crossed with me..But dont ever estimate her orh even though she may look innocent and harmless:p

She can easily avoid those questions and shoot back the questions to us one arh.She can do zumba, aerobox, steps and etc..She have the charm to make the guys to wait for her in workplace too:p (dont kill me pls hehe)

Thanks wei wei for being such a blessing in my life. Really missed those time in lecture halls, in unigym, in sydney, New Zealand, ur hse.....

But oh well, i'm sure we will meet again as we will work tgt in perth or sg right?? hehe..Me and yaya will nag u till u come with us!!

Your favourite mochi in sydney!!

BFF:))))

The burger which filled our stomach in NZ:)

Happy Birthday Shin Yee!!

Dr Shin, where r u?? Are u still stuck with work in the hospital?

We all waiting for u with the 25 muffins to surprise you leh!! hehe..

Shin Yee, my new housemate in Launnie:) If i have to find one reason to make me stay in Launnie, it will be my housemate who like to kacau, bully me but pamper me with good yummy food too!

Thanks for being my movie companion. We have watched so many chick flick shows tgt and it was so fun!!

Thanks for listening to my complains on my pharmacy, colleagues, relationship and etc !

Thanks for making the nice siew pao when we all crave for hometown food!

Thanks for making my ONE YEAR stay in launnie such a memorable and fun one!

But lets move to mainland together next yr k?

Happy Birthday again pretty gal! May God bless you and ur loved ones abundantly:)

Serving others then yourself:)

Last Sunday Sermon was about serving God and His people.It seems like a basic fact which everyone knows but how many of us really put it into practice?

Even if we did, how many of us are doing with a genuine heart?

I must admit that many times i serve myself more than others:(

According to the worldly thinking, the person who is served and blessed by others always is the most 'xing fu' person around. And everyone will look at him/her in awe, hoping that we will be like that too one day..

But actually, according to bible, the one who has the ability to serve others is the most 'xing fu' person around instead. Cos he/she is healthy, capable enough to do this and that for the ppl..

This struck me alot as i had that kind of worldly thinking as well!

Coming to think of it, won't u want to be the one who still can serve the church and ppl than the one in wheelchairs or even on the bed, being fed by others?

As our God has very good sense of humor, He actually put me into real situation to see whether i really understand the true meaning of it..

I got a call from my manager, Tracey that she wanted me to work half day on wed and another half day on Sunday. This means that i wont get any higher pay and also i wont have any day off for this week!

To make it even worse, i asked her for subsidy on some bus fees and she rejected me..

My first impression is: Kiam Siap!

But God reminded me about serving others! How often will she ask me to work on sunday? She must be really short of workers then only she will request for it!

And so, i accepted it willingly! Amen!

Father, i did well right?? hehe..

Do you understand me?

The blue struck...

Can you don't remind me of it anymore?

It will just make me feel even more upset:(

It's not easy here and i need ur consideration.

I hope that you can give a pat on my shoulder like what others will do.

You know how much i want but decision already been done.

At least now there is no turning point for it.

Blue please leave me alone...

Life is short and i just wan to be happy gal!!

Happy Valentine's Day:)

Just came back from Hobart for a workshop organised by Chemist Warehouse. The discussion group was pretty informative and useful even though it went abit stressful at the beginning..

So much self-learning studies to be done!

So much revision to be done as i noticed that i forgot many of them..haiz..

So many assignments to be finished before end of March!

God, I need more time..Please help me in time management..Pls recharge me so that i will be energetic and on fuel for the rest of the days:)

On the side note, had a nice catch up with wei wei, joyce and hannah yesterday night:) I felt so much relieved after pouring all my deep mumbles to wei wei at night! Thank gal for be my listener!! And ur yummy lunch too!

Also, Thanks to those who blessed me so much with the gifts.Truly appreciate them:)

Home, the best place to be:)

Three weeks holiday at home is really too short!!

It had been one week plus since i am back in Launnie but i am still homesick:(

Waving goodbye and hugging them in airport is the hardest thing to do..I promised not to cry like a baby but i failed each time.

I just have to keep looking forward to june and hopefully manager will allow me to take few weeks off to go home again:p

Please. God help me to be tougher and stronger:) This is life as we know it!

I miss u all at home seriously:)

Two is better than One:)

Awww..

Been doing my bro and rbc's wedding slide show for few days, and whenever i look at their pictures together with the BIG smile on their faces, i immediately feel so "xing fu" for them!!

Their smiles are so genuine..

Their interests may not be the same, but they willing to accompany each other..

They may have different opinions, but they listen to each other with a tolerant and open heart..

They may have ups and downs, but they opt to go thru them tgt as Two is better than One..

Most importantly, they put God as the center which hold them tightly together..

They have shown the younger generation such a great testimony and I sincerely pray that God will bless this wonderful couple forever:)

Can't wait for this most heart-warming wedding eva!!

I miss you sooo much Voon:(

The thought of going home in one week time is exciting until i realize that i am not going to see you in this jan:(

Within seconds, my tears started to drop and i feel awful now:(

Do you know that i dream of you ytd??

In the dream, I were accompanying you all the way. We were chatting happily and had the most fun time together..But all these only occurred in the dream:( The real fact is that i wasn't there at all, not even ur funeral!

Can i rewind the time back to when we had tuition together? the time we shopped tgt? the time when we went to camp together?

Tell me how shud i control feeling when i can only see ur black n white pic but not touching you?

How do i control my tears from falling when i go to ur cemetery?

I hope you are missing me in heaven too just as much as i miss you now:)

Sorry:(

Had been ages since i last posted something.. Oh well..After since i started working, all i want to do at home is just Rest and Rest!!

But today i am in the mood to blog as my heart was troubled and i need to release them out before i brought them to sleep tonight!!

You may not understand how's my heart feeling right now. but i must tell u that i have no intention to hurt or fool you:(

I dont know how does that happen but it just occurred naturally. I cant help it but to admit that it is the truth.

I am a stubborn gal so it is hard to change it now..

I thought it will turn out to be what i expected but obviously it didnt:(

So dont ask me anymore as i felt the burden right now..