A letter to you, Voon:)

Dear ah moi,

Without notice, we had been friends for 23 years:) You and me seem to share a very special bonding since small..There is not a single day that we dont see each other since born until we left AMC.

God had put both of us to meet and be good friends/cousin for so many years.

We learnt playing badminton, swimming with the scary tutor, drawing in ur neighbour house..

We watched movie together every saturday night when our parents were having gathering outside.

We played barbie doll, masak masak and visited grandparents every sunday.

We went to 'Hong Jie', CALAU, Ms Chew, Mr Liew, Umi's tuition and etc. Everytime i go to a new tuition, i dont have to be scared cos i know you are there for me and will sit beside me always:)

Both of us sked to go toilet alone and so we go tgt (shared the same toilet room)..haha..Even the teacher called us as twins.

We had lunch tgt in assam house, McD or school canteen before we went for tuition.

We joined KRS, learnt how to tie ropes, went to lotsa gatherings, presenting drama and dances in front of them..

Haha..we even talked about some cute guys in tuition. Rmb there is one cute guy in our chinese tuition..We were so silly right?

There are tonnes of our fond memories in my mind now:) Oh ya, do u remember the time when we went to Redang?? We couldn't find toilets and ended up "curi-curi" in the bushes..haha..

Also, last yr, we bought a same ring tgt which resembled our friendship. I am still keeping it:)

And the korean masks that u bought for me..I will cherish them too:)

Moi, i know you are having joy and peace up there:) our God must be taking good care of you there. Your leaving is something we all dont want to see, but i believe that it's the best plan God have for you.

As i was walking alone just now, God reminded me this: Be still, and know that i am God (Psalm 46:10)

Goodbye Ah Moi. Love and miss you always:)

My greatest regret:(

You're gone now:(

I can't hear ur sweet voice anymore..

I can't laugh at ur jokes anymore..

I can't see and touch ur beautiful face anymore..

You promised to go shopping with me when i m back..

You promised to do manicure with me during cny..

I still want to treat u good meal when i get my first pay..

Why? Why? Why?

You are the longest fren i ever knew..

We meet each other everyday since small..Remember the time you told me that i am the person u met the most and we meet each other more than our parents..

Rmb that time when you told me that you feel uncomfortable and lonely when i fell sick and couldn't attend tuition?

Rmb that time we shed tears when we have to study in different school..

Rmb that time when we pressed ppl's doorbell and ran as fast as we can?

Rmb that time when we learn badminton, swimming, dancing together?

Rmb that time when we camp together in the ugly hut and walk through the forest full of leeches? We were told by the commander that we are Charlie Angels cos we are the fittest among all..

I want you to be back!!! i seriously miss you so much...

It is my greatest regret that i couldn't hear ur voice, see ur last glance..In fact i am the last person in family to know that ur cancer had spread this far!!

I dont blame my family for not telling me this cos i know they dont wan to be this sad now..

But you know what, I want to knwo earlier!! It is sooooooo hard for me to accept this!

If only i know u started to be worse on wednesday, I will fly back!! I will be by ur side even though i can't do anything..But i can be there for u!!

I am sorrryyyy for not being there when u suffer the most! Forgive me! I am such a lousy fren!!