Two more papers!!

Two more papers to go!! will be so good if these two papers are the easier one..so much to cover and memorize and my brain got so little space to store.. i wan to reserve my brain space for happy memories and not to be covered by all these studies le..As my fren said, 1/3 of our life is already filled with studies, so dont stress out anymore as our lives got much more interesting things than studies..i do wan to agree with him but whenever exams come, this fact is always ignored.. as i feel very guilty if i dont study..i dont like the feeling which u look at the papers and knew nothing. i dont like the guessing feeling..i wan my things to be in control, to be under my control precisely..hehe..

Am i a very dominat and controlling person? Is this good or bad? Dunno since when i dont like the uncertainty. i dont like the unprepared feeling..i wish i can be a person who just followed..follow the emotion, what the heart wants. but as i get older, i dont like this. i like to decide the stuffs, i like to plan out things beforehands..But dont get me wrong..this doesnt mean that i m an organised person..i can be a very random person and do random stuffs at last minute..

haha..i also dunno wat am i writing..maybe i m too stressed out already..maybe i m too nervous for my these papers..

Emotions for today:

my fren asked me this ques and it strucked me alot. i answered no, how i wish my answer is YES. Dear heavenly father, why why why?? i wan YES YES YES..U know how much i wish to say YES but i cant..although i could have said yes anytime i want, but something in my heart asking me not to, something is holding me back!! why ya father?? do i think too much or worry too much?? i can just say yes but why i hesistate so much lah??? i wish it is not too late...Grant me wisdom my Lord..onli u can help me in this...and

Happy father's day to my heavenly and earthly dad!!! hehe..(i m random again..)

Yes 3 down but 3 more to go!!

The 3 toughest papers are yet to come!! Am I ready? confident? I seriously dont know but i guess i had tried my best and all i can do now is to leave to Him and let He be the pilot of my exam. He will give me a safe landing for sure, the safest landing ever!! Dear Lord, help me not to lean on my own understanding but to truly and sincerely trust on YOU!!

I have a heart and passion for pharmacy and i m sure You know about this more than everyone else does. i will relax and have a good rest for my hope is secure in You!! Amen!!